To be candid here, physically I am not in a good place.
I am the heaviest I’ve ever been. 205lbs.
This is not to be confused with everything else. Mentally I am happy, job wise happy, relationships happy. All good.
But physically, I hate myself more than I’ve ever hated myself before.
This is hard to process. I’ve struggled with food, some days eating little other days binging and doing nothing. The winter was long, the job thing new. I hadn’t settled.
So here I am again.
Back at the start.
It is not a pleasant place to be.